A Little Something I Wrote
Losing, Well… Used to
When you lose someone, you lose you. When you lose a couple of people you lose you. When you lose people, people lose you. Now who? Who are you? Do you know? Why do we place the hatred on love when the fault is really our own. Things we do. Things we allow. All consequences from the choices we’ve made. The things we said. Always looking back on the things we did? Every time I look back around this time of the year it’s usually the same thing, different person. That’s the problem. Always a different person. Some you deserved. Some you feel weren’t even worth it. Even somethings done to you & you swear you don’t deserve it. But that’s all a part of losing you. You gotta lose who you thought you knew. Cause really you don’t even know you. I don’t know me. We all just live to exist. We all just live to be, who we think we are. Who we want to be. Who we know we can’t be. Even be the way we shouldn’t be. But that’s all a part of losing me. I never knew who I was all along. Always playing the same song. Expecting handouts. Giving nothing. When you gonna be who you wanna be? Gon look back and be like oh I used to be. Where is your vision? Not where it used to be. But that’s all a part of being me. I had to lose me so I could say I used to be. Then turn right around and play the game as tho I’m not losing me. I lost me when I lost you, and you, and you, you, you, and shit even you too. Knowing all the things I used to do. Paying attention to none of the things I used to. I ended up losing me and losing you. I lost. More than I used to.
i wonder how many people would actually care if i died, i mean really care, not just be sad because they’re being polite, who would be crushed, who would scream for me to come back, i wonder who would think of me everyday after i was gone. probably no one, but it would be nice if even just one person was truly upset.
(Source: unicorn-testicles)
do u plan on having locks for the rest of your life?
no i dont think so. i havent quite figured out when i want to take them out but i def wont be cutting them off.
